If it is any small consulation we are going thru something similar. We are almost ten grand in the hole. Last week was our worse time ever. I had to resort to selling some of my kids and my clothes to get money to pay for their school lunches. We were so broke my kids started school with out back packs because i only had money for their lunch. I had to go to a store and return items that i did not buy from them just to get store credit to get food. That broke my heart considering the fact that we moved here to have a better life in the first place. I too kept a straight face for my kids sake but inside it was killing me. It was also hard to watch my husband feel humiliated for having a hard time providing for us. I had to be strong and determine for all of them. In so many words, all i am saying is you are not alone and to hold on. It will get better, hold on to this belief and pray. I am not religious but i do believe we do not go thru more than we can handle. This is a life lesson that make or break us. For our kids sake let it make us so when they are grown they can remember our actions and be able to do the same at their time. It is good that you vent, do not keep it in. Your pain and anger could turn in to depression. Like they say, depression is anger felt and expressed within. It is a silent and deadly killer. You have my e-mail so if you need to vent some more i am here. I wish your husband well on that job for you and your kids sake. He should look into Bannerhealth.com for openings because Gateway hospital is opening soon and are hiring. I do not know you but i will pray for you and yours.nsulation